mid 2014 (september-early 2015)
ini adalah tahun pertama gue masuk kuliah.
gue mutusin to put away my hijab for...well my plan was until i finished my study here.
but if i can wear sooner,why not? but i need to promise myself that after wearing it again,
i wont ever take it off anymore.. well,i did made that decision.
kebetulan, temannya doi kuliah dikota yang tdk bgtu jauh dari kota gue. sebut saja temanya adalah A. gue suka beberapa kali jalan di kota si A ini. dan si A juga emg temen gue juga si. dan doi kebetulan suka main krumah temanya ini, si A. padahal beda kota uda gitu berjam2 dari kota doi ke kota A.
dan itu ngebuat secara ga sengaja,me and him met. hmm..i guess i was in a good contact with him.
there was once a time where he chatted me first in the middle of a nite and it wasnt something important at all lol. then we had a nice chats i guess.
october,november passed..december came..new years eve came..
awalnya gue berencana tahun baru di kota temen gue,yang dia jg kenal sama doi.
tapi entah..tmn gue ini bilang, doi ngajakin tahun baruanya di rumah A aja. doi disana jg loh me!
kata temen gue gtu. A ini,temenya doi,temenya tmn gue, dan temen gue juga. A ini yg kuliah di kota yg deket sama kota gue tadi. yang tadi gue mention diatas!
alhasil si doi ngchat gue ngajakin tahun baruanya drumah si A aja.okeh,deal g jadi beli tiket k kota temen gue hahaha .___.
3 hari nginep disana kurang lebih.. gue lupa bawa baju tiduur yaaa huhu jadi g enak bgt g punya baju tidur :( tights yg gue pake jalan terpaksa buat tidur :( kan g enak :(
malesnya lagi gue g jago masak yak,and he cooks well.gue bagian bersi2 nya aja dehh :3 huhu :''
slama disana,gimana caranya gue harus nglupain dia. i mean that feeling bro.cuman sekedar..dia g baik buat gue..
hari saatnya balik ke kota masing2 datang, and i felt like,,i cant handle this.
just that hard to say goodbye lol. huft.
we're heading back now to our own town. i cried to my friend who was there and she was like,
"come on,not bcause of him and all you can do is just nothing"
one of my friends took my phone and chatted him.shit .__. *now awkward*
bcz we had nothing to discuss or anything.and he replied just short.
the nite came,i said a thing that i dont even wish to be more.im just..saying..
somehow i do regret. i just cant believe i could do that. anyway it just happend.
after that one nite, we didnt have a contact anymore until he chatted me first asking why i took off my hijab. i explained it all.. then well im not really hoping him to understand since not all peple can understand me. then he replied short,just to cheer me up. i didt replied. until he texted me again saying that he wanted to visit my town. and so he stayed at our home for a nite. he was accompanied by A.
it was short.and..bye~ :) my roommate said we're not awkward at all ;)
i thought that i would be really fine with him if maybe i could have an easy conversation with in chats but..he seems to make a distance then, so.. i never contacted him anymore unless asking for something really important regarding i dont know,like university,lessons and things like that.. :)
and...yea.that was it. and our last meeting was Eid that july.
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Friday, October 30, 2015
Mr. Wall #part1
okay. so this crush..lemme say his name Mr wall. egaal whatever.
why i liked him? since when? when do we know each other? when do we met each other?
..
gue kenal dia wktu gue masi diindo.menjelang persiapan mo kjerman. masih les bahasa jerman dibandung bareng nika.
suatu hari nika dapat kenalan ditwitter, yaitu doi. yg juga mau kjerman.
nika cerita k gue,mereka kenalan dan tukeran pin bb.
gue, sebagai teman nika..gue jg pengen punya temen indo yg sama2 mau kjerman dan
alhasil gue nge add dia. iyaps. dia nanya gue siapa,dan yaaa gue bilang temenya nika. salam kenal!
lalalaa.. hhehe. udah tuh.
yeup.sekedar ingin punya tmn yg sama2 mau kjerman :)
cuman dia nympe djerman lebih dulu dr gue ama nika.dia nympe akhir thun 2012 gue awal 2013.
*oke g penting*
awal 2013 gue uda studkol T d leipzig, tapi masih pengen daftar studkol M buat entar winter.
winter semester pun tiba skitar bulan2 august,sept.. gue test M disalah satu kota tempat si doi studkol..
kita ga bener2 ketemu sih. malah dhari itu,
gue ''~~ku padaa pandangaan pertamaa~~'' sama cowo lain.
emang bulan2 itu gue belum ada suka sama si Wall. cuman malah, 'cwo lain' ini, berujung pada 'pertemanan' dengan si Wall, cowo yg nantinya gue suka.
kalo gue inget2 lagi, keanya gue ada liat si Wall with his friends.in black tshirt? anyway itu cuma skilas. toh gue slama itu juga ngeliat doi cuman dari dp(display pict) bbm kan? oke.
gue g ketemu secara 'real' sama si Wall hari itu. tapi si nika katanya ngobrol ketemu doi.(yeup nika juga ikutan test di kota itu)
yang jelas,,bulan2 itu gue lagi suka sama 'cwo lain' itu. bukan si Wall. inisialnya 'a'
oke gue g akan bhas si 'a' dsni.
winter semester dimulai testnya bulan august gitu. oya.gue ga ketrima dkota itu huhuhu dan emang gue udah g ada
minat sama M-kurs dan gue uda mutusin buat lanjut studkol T dleipzig aja. jadi winter itu gue semester 2 alias semester terakhir di leipzig(yg ternyata gue wieder -.-)
kalo g salah bulan oktober dmna ada libur apaa gtu djerman..oktoberfest gitu,,libur dstudkol gue lebih cepet dibanding liburnya dikota doi.
sblm libur2 itu datang.. doi ngechat gue,si Wall. katanya dia mau main kleipzig wkatu libur itu datang.minta diajakin jalan2 dleipzig ceritanya..
smnjak itu,kita lumayan suka chattingan mskipun ga 'sering' bgt. continuesly but not often if i may say.
chattingan kita biasa kok. g prnah ngejurus yg aneh2.hahha
cuman pernah ada beberapa cute stickers..
cuman pernah ada beberapa 'schlaf gut' words..
nothing much, but i liked it.
okay. i liked him. tapi ga seberapa.
but came a day..
*woke up in the morning* *opening mobile phone*
*got chat from him in notification*
''skype yuk!"
i was like '' aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
dan mulailah kita berbagi ID skype. dia ngajakin vidcall but i refused bcz i was sooo lazy to wear my hijab lol. jadinya cuman voice call.
dia ngefollow gue akhirya dtwitter,dan gue follback. hari itu juga haha padahal dia g minta twitter gue:''
gue bener2 seneng banget sama gue yang gue pikir,,gue suka sama dia. dan g pernah berfikir kalo dia mungkin suka juga sama gue saat itu.
i was just too happy for myself knowing that i liked him.
but never even onced i think that maybe he feels the same way..never.
gue crita ke nika,,how i liked him..dan gue g abis pikir,,nika ngasih kode ke si Wall, which myself may think that 'mega do likes him' kan gue maluu --'' anyway time flies, kita jadi jarang kontaakan.
dan dia bilang g jadi ke leipzig soalnya ada tugas waktu libur katanya. tapi entah dia ke leipzig one day but he didnt contact me. anyway whatever.. :)
akhir tahun baru, diajakin k paris sama doi.nika juga diajakin si..but i cant.
tahun baru lewat, gue wieder(ngulang 1 semester studkol) dan jadilah slama 2014 sommer kmrn gue masih sudkol dan lulus bulan Juni nya..
slaama itu,kita uda jarang kontakan. hampir g pernah mungkin. slama itu pula,,prsaan itu mulai menghilang,sesekali.
karna udah lama g kontakan,, im willing myself to 'move on' from him..
udah lulus Studkol waktu sommer dia juga uda lulus studkol, dia mau main kleipzig tapi gue tau itu dari temen gue yang kebetulan lagi singgah beberapa bulan dleipzig buat kerja. temen gue ini tau banget awal2 gue suka si Wall.dan temen gue ini juga satu studkol sama doi tapi beda jurusan.intinya satu kotalah ya studkkolnya.
waktu tmn gue keterima di kota itu,,rasanya emang takdir g pernah salah.
tmn gue ini suka crita tentang doi gmna d kota itu. jdi sewaktu tes winter itu, gue g ktrima,tp tmn gue ini ktrima.bukan si nika tapi temen gue yang lain ;)
dan mereka(temen gue dan doi) berujung pada pertemanan..yang..yah tmn gue ini suka nyeritain whats goin on with him,dia apa kabar segala macem..
jadi,yaa meski gue sma doi ujung2nya jarang kontakan..but i still know about him through my friend ini. :')
trs 2014 gue lulus studkol bulan juli gitu, dia mo main tu kleipzig... itu kata tmn gue ini yg emg dia lg dleipzig kbtulan kerja(yg tdi gue bilang diatas)..tapi sayang,.dari tanggalnya,,gue pikir waktu itu..keanya g bkal bisa ketemu si,
sampai dimana kata temen gue ini,,doi g jdi dateng! okay..emg ga jodoh buat kita ketemu d leipzig hahha :'(
soalnya,,thatll be our first time meeting each other rite? :') kenal akhir 2012 dan ampe 2014 baru ketemu.
ampe dateng suatu hari,,di dalam bulan yg sama...temen gue ini ngajakin gue ke mekong(asia bistro gitu) jam 3an gitu gue agak lupa..
katanya mo ngasi kado..hadiah gitu,, cuman gue refuse awalnya soalnya mepet gue mo ada termin(janji) pokoknya sore itu juga..cuman kata temen gue,,kadonya cmn bisa dkasih jam segitu! dan temen gue ngotot banget buat pliiss meegg!..
yauda gue usahain g telat soalnya sore itu gue sebenernya ada urusan soal pindah rumah(kan ceritanya mo pindah kota karna udah lulus studkol :3)..udah tuh.. trnyata,,,kadonya..
DOI :'' hoho
gagal deh move on :''
btw diinget2, pertemuan pertama kita ini..yang di arrange sama temen gue -.-
yang gue g tau sama sekali.kata temen gue juga doi g tau ada gue -.-
it was the first and last time he saw me wearing my hijab
bcz after that we met again when we all already go to colleges that was like months later..
i showed up in an indonesian event,and he was there too and i didnt wear my hijab anymore.that was my desicion that i took when i entered the first semester in college.
why i liked him? since when? when do we know each other? when do we met each other?
..
gue kenal dia wktu gue masi diindo.menjelang persiapan mo kjerman. masih les bahasa jerman dibandung bareng nika.
suatu hari nika dapat kenalan ditwitter, yaitu doi. yg juga mau kjerman.
nika cerita k gue,mereka kenalan dan tukeran pin bb.
gue, sebagai teman nika..gue jg pengen punya temen indo yg sama2 mau kjerman dan
alhasil gue nge add dia. iyaps. dia nanya gue siapa,dan yaaa gue bilang temenya nika. salam kenal!
lalalaa.. hhehe. udah tuh.
yeup.sekedar ingin punya tmn yg sama2 mau kjerman :)
cuman dia nympe djerman lebih dulu dr gue ama nika.dia nympe akhir thun 2012 gue awal 2013.
*oke g penting*
awal 2013 gue uda studkol T d leipzig, tapi masih pengen daftar studkol M buat entar winter.
winter semester pun tiba skitar bulan2 august,sept.. gue test M disalah satu kota tempat si doi studkol..
kita ga bener2 ketemu sih. malah dhari itu,
gue ''~~ku padaa pandangaan pertamaa~~'' sama cowo lain.
emang bulan2 itu gue belum ada suka sama si Wall. cuman malah, 'cwo lain' ini, berujung pada 'pertemanan' dengan si Wall, cowo yg nantinya gue suka.
kalo gue inget2 lagi, keanya gue ada liat si Wall with his friends.in black tshirt? anyway itu cuma skilas. toh gue slama itu juga ngeliat doi cuman dari dp(display pict) bbm kan? oke.
gue g ketemu secara 'real' sama si Wall hari itu. tapi si nika katanya ngobrol ketemu doi.(yeup nika juga ikutan test di kota itu)
yang jelas,,bulan2 itu gue lagi suka sama 'cwo lain' itu. bukan si Wall. inisialnya 'a'
oke gue g akan bhas si 'a' dsni.
winter semester dimulai testnya bulan august gitu. oya.gue ga ketrima dkota itu huhuhu dan emang gue udah g ada
minat sama M-kurs dan gue uda mutusin buat lanjut studkol T dleipzig aja. jadi winter itu gue semester 2 alias semester terakhir di leipzig(yg ternyata gue wieder -.-)
kalo g salah bulan oktober dmna ada libur apaa gtu djerman..oktoberfest gitu,,libur dstudkol gue lebih cepet dibanding liburnya dikota doi.
sblm libur2 itu datang.. doi ngechat gue,si Wall. katanya dia mau main kleipzig wkatu libur itu datang.minta diajakin jalan2 dleipzig ceritanya..
smnjak itu,kita lumayan suka chattingan mskipun ga 'sering' bgt. continuesly but not often if i may say.
chattingan kita biasa kok. g prnah ngejurus yg aneh2.hahha
cuman pernah ada beberapa cute stickers..
cuman pernah ada beberapa 'schlaf gut' words..
nothing much, but i liked it.
okay. i liked him. tapi ga seberapa.
but came a day..
*woke up in the morning* *opening mobile phone*
*got chat from him in notification*
''skype yuk!"
i was like '' aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
dan mulailah kita berbagi ID skype. dia ngajakin vidcall but i refused bcz i was sooo lazy to wear my hijab lol. jadinya cuman voice call.
dia ngefollow gue akhirya dtwitter,dan gue follback. hari itu juga haha padahal dia g minta twitter gue:''
gue bener2 seneng banget sama gue yang gue pikir,,gue suka sama dia. dan g pernah berfikir kalo dia mungkin suka juga sama gue saat itu.
i was just too happy for myself knowing that i liked him.
but never even onced i think that maybe he feels the same way..never.
gue crita ke nika,,how i liked him..dan gue g abis pikir,,nika ngasih kode ke si Wall, which myself may think that 'mega do likes him' kan gue maluu --'' anyway time flies, kita jadi jarang kontaakan.
dan dia bilang g jadi ke leipzig soalnya ada tugas waktu libur katanya. tapi entah dia ke leipzig one day but he didnt contact me. anyway whatever.. :)
akhir tahun baru, diajakin k paris sama doi.nika juga diajakin si..but i cant.
tahun baru lewat, gue wieder(ngulang 1 semester studkol) dan jadilah slama 2014 sommer kmrn gue masih sudkol dan lulus bulan Juni nya..
slaama itu,kita uda jarang kontakan. hampir g pernah mungkin. slama itu pula,,prsaan itu mulai menghilang,sesekali.
karna udah lama g kontakan,, im willing myself to 'move on' from him..
udah lulus Studkol waktu sommer dia juga uda lulus studkol, dia mau main kleipzig tapi gue tau itu dari temen gue yang kebetulan lagi singgah beberapa bulan dleipzig buat kerja. temen gue ini tau banget awal2 gue suka si Wall.dan temen gue ini juga satu studkol sama doi tapi beda jurusan.intinya satu kotalah ya studkkolnya.
waktu tmn gue keterima di kota itu,,rasanya emang takdir g pernah salah.
tmn gue ini suka crita tentang doi gmna d kota itu. jdi sewaktu tes winter itu, gue g ktrima,tp tmn gue ini ktrima.bukan si nika tapi temen gue yang lain ;)
dan mereka(temen gue dan doi) berujung pada pertemanan..yang..yah tmn gue ini suka nyeritain whats goin on with him,dia apa kabar segala macem..
jadi,yaa meski gue sma doi ujung2nya jarang kontakan..but i still know about him through my friend ini. :')
trs 2014 gue lulus studkol bulan juli gitu, dia mo main tu kleipzig... itu kata tmn gue ini yg emg dia lg dleipzig kbtulan kerja(yg tdi gue bilang diatas)..tapi sayang,.dari tanggalnya,,gue pikir waktu itu..keanya g bkal bisa ketemu si,
sampai dimana kata temen gue ini,,doi g jdi dateng! okay..emg ga jodoh buat kita ketemu d leipzig hahha :'(
soalnya,,thatll be our first time meeting each other rite? :') kenal akhir 2012 dan ampe 2014 baru ketemu.
ampe dateng suatu hari,,di dalam bulan yg sama...temen gue ini ngajakin gue ke mekong(asia bistro gitu) jam 3an gitu gue agak lupa..
katanya mo ngasi kado..hadiah gitu,, cuman gue refuse awalnya soalnya mepet gue mo ada termin(janji) pokoknya sore itu juga..cuman kata temen gue,,kadonya cmn bisa dkasih jam segitu! dan temen gue ngotot banget buat pliiss meegg!..
yauda gue usahain g telat soalnya sore itu gue sebenernya ada urusan soal pindah rumah(kan ceritanya mo pindah kota karna udah lulus studkol :3)..udah tuh.. trnyata,,,kadonya..
DOI :'' hoho
gagal deh move on :''
btw diinget2, pertemuan pertama kita ini..yang di arrange sama temen gue -.-
yang gue g tau sama sekali.kata temen gue juga doi g tau ada gue -.-
it was the first and last time he saw me wearing my hijab
bcz after that we met again when we all already go to colleges that was like months later..
i showed up in an indonesian event,and he was there too and i didnt wear my hijab anymore.that was my desicion that i took when i entered the first semester in college.
Friday, October 9, 2015
The Quiet You
hey you !
yes you,,
i wonder if you read this,
but i guess not..
i know it sounds silly,
sounds to me so though..
ive waited you
ive been waiting this for long,,no,,not this long,,
still couples of months ago,why is it long?
well,,maybe i felt like the time goes slowly,
and it just made my day filled lots of curiosity
yes about you,how could i like you?
eeewwhh,you dont act too much,
or speak too much,all of em are less,it sucks me since im a girl
so i just wait,
with some prayers..
and some hopes,,would that kind of miracle come to me,
that miracle,me and you..together,,
just maybe,.like always wondering
when and when and when..thats because i do nothing
do nothing to make you see..
wouldnt it be hurt if you know the truth that he doesnt feel the same way?
so hows the next story goes?
wishing all would be still..still good,
since im not that kind of girl,that might do this kind of words..
"reach your love if you love him"
cz im againts that sentence,,
cz i cant stand those words,,well,,sometimes,,
just depends on your point of view rite?
well i just got some dreams bout you,,eventhough the nite before i go to sleep i didnt think of ya..lol im really is moviin on,,
Posted in 05.12.2012
yes you,,
i wonder if you read this,
but i guess not..
i know it sounds silly,
sounds to me so though..
ive waited you
ive been waiting this for long,,no,,not this long,,
still couples of months ago,why is it long?
well,,maybe i felt like the time goes slowly,
and it just made my day filled lots of curiosity
yes about you,how could i like you?
eeewwhh,you dont act too much,
or speak too much,all of em are less,it sucks me since im a girl
so i just wait,
with some prayers..
and some hopes,,would that kind of miracle come to me,
that miracle,me and you..together,,
just maybe,.like always wondering
when and when and when..thats because i do nothing
do nothing to make you see..
wouldnt it be hurt if you know the truth that he doesnt feel the same way?
so hows the next story goes?
wishing all would be still..still good,
since im not that kind of girl,that might do this kind of words..
"reach your love if you love him"
cz im againts that sentence,,
cz i cant stand those words,,well,,sometimes,,
just depends on your point of view rite?
well i just got some dreams bout you,,eventhough the nite before i go to sleep i didnt think of ya..lol im really is moviin on,,
Posted in 05.12.2012
The Guitar
a guitar??its a swift thing,hohooho..
why is it with g u i t a r ?lemme tell you,,hhmmh,,
okay,,when i hear to taylors songs,,which commonly with guitar..
i duno my fingers just wanted to make a sound like that,,i cant play guitar..
and i duno i just dont play guitar,i dont play instruments okay,,and this feeling,,"i wanted to play guitaaaarr pleasee someone teachh me,," came out in the end of my senior high padahal gue suka taylor like few years ago..why would i learnn that??cz its like this,when you hear a new song,,a song which you never heard of before..and you just began to like it first maybe from how the notes goes,
how it makes your body move,,and of course youre curios of the lyrics rite??you just cant keep 'nana nana na na naa' or whatever it is..rite??
so you started to search the lyrics,,and started to sing together in a rite rythem with the rite lyrics not just "na nana nanaaa"so searching the lyrics of a music that we like,,,its like the ingredients when you wanna cook something..and it taste mild when the ingredients is not enough rite?you felt like its not complete rite if you cant sing properly with the lyrics on the song you really like??isnt it?so its the same,,okay well we've done with searching the lyrics and began to sing with the song..but i felt not just stopped there,,like the ingredients is not enough,,
it seems i wanna sing along with that instrument..the guitar,,thats it,,and i imagined how would it taste when the ingredients is full enough..sounds tasty hu??so,, i donno why i just wanted to learn,,but i didnt have guitar at that time..so i started asking my boys classmate,,whether they have a guitar to borrow one..and yeaa i got one,,,and who would teach me??lucky me,,my classmate,,,yeaa a close friend of mine,,her name is septyn,,she played guitar well...and lucky me her house is close enough to my house,,so! we started the lessoonn!!! what i hope from here is that at least i could play one of million taylors songs my self and,,if possible,,the song which is like reaallly me :Dso she taught me the indo simple song,i mean easy key..but that lasted really quick,,
cz we have to face SNMPTN,an entrance college exams..but besides that..the one who had the guitar wants his guiatr back cz his mother wanted to use it,,its like few days only,,well at first i used septyns guitar,,but the strigs are not well,,and just cant fixed it or what,i forgot,,so i need to borrow one for myself to practice at home rite?anndd,,,so that just only few days,,and we have to concentrate on the snmptn...so enough for the guitaring lesson..untill that exam is done,,i wanted to practice agaiin with her,,but she just,,shes still buzy with the entrance college exams,,well im not,,cz i dont really intend on that,,
cz ive prepared myself to study abroad rite...i dont know,,
i didnt even thinkin on having a guitar course somewhere,,hhohoo...achh jaa,,after the snmptn test,,ive already got a guitar,,my sisters guitar..not really a good one btw..so i keep thinkin who would teachh mee goddd,,,
until i asked one of my classmate,a boy..but sorry again,,hes busy with his new college...okayy enoughhh so i started to look on the internet,,the videos on how learning a guitar.starting onn youtube,,and i see he has his own site,so i opened it...yepppp i got! the name iss..i forgot,,its a guiatr practicing and we can subscribe by sending our email to him,,but i just felt uncomfort like that way,,theres also the paid one if yu wanted,,but please my mom wont let me and i even dont have money lol.so learning from the video just for days...and endddd on that way lol..untiillll when im in bandung,,and planned to go home like weeks,,i wonder what would i do besides learning deutsch..ahh jaa,,,i wanted to learn guitar agaiin,,,whereeee the hell is butt...!at that time,,ive already knew and met a boy..where i dont expect that he could play guitar well..well at first,i dont really thinkin of would he teach me...nika suggested me,,on her friends studio,seems like theres aguitar course,,but,,pleasee,,if theres the free one,,i'd better take the free one :D so she just knew what i was thinkin,,'who dont you try askin him?maybe he would.." thats it,,butt,,ohh how come,,im too shy.so honestly,,the one who chatted with him at that time was my friend ... well at first i asked him whether he has someone that he knew that could teach me..well yea he knew his teacher bfore,,and he said that he could accompany me there..but then i bravely ask like,,btw,,youre good at playin guitar rite?so why dont just you??
and like he said 'anytime i can please,,' hhoho,,so okay i got anothere free teacher,,well my friend sees this as in our word is 'modus' but well,,not at all guuys! weeelll,,okay a bit,,cz i have feelin to him bfore i asked him to teach me okayy??but who would expect that he could play guitar and teach me??
buttt,,yeaa that just lasted a week,,bz he seems buzy anyway its his last year of senior high..he must have been busy on preparing all of the things to face the national exam,,but beside that,,around the next 2 weeks,,he has to perform with his band in a school event,like indie band i guess,,so that weeks is a week where he also busy practicing on drum,,so i felt like i interrupted him,,so okay its fine i wanna go to his teacher which mean i have to pay..okay i went to his teacher alone,,well at first i got confused on my way there...like i came to a wrong house ! shittt!
lolllll how shaameeee -_____-
then i asked people around there then yapp i found it! i only got 3 days lesson,,cz the last week which on saturday i have to go back to bandung..and guruku ini pengennya libur jeda sehari tiap after having course..okay fine,,i got the basic of learning guitar..not like when with him,,we just played one song and happyy mee cz he teach me taylors song! which is love story,,hohooo..an ternyata nih,he never had a course on playin guitar,it just did,i stil remember he said 'what i know about playin guitar is just jengg jengg jengg' hahahaa lol --" great then.you see? cz im like my point is not getting closer to him,,but my point is just to that guitar,cz i wana "jreenggg" the guitar..if not,,then when i felt like hes really busy,,i wont call his teacher,,rite??
but now..i dont practise it again..now im at home,,i finished my deutsch lesson at bandung...so waited my visa at home,while keep studying for the studkol or aufnahmetest...why dont i study it again?i know and i must realize it..i know that this playin guitar is not something that i wanna keep holding on,and do something with that guitar,,its just because when i hear to taylors songs,,it just wanted me to play those strings,,just it...i cant even be like those who really are talented on playing guitar..and they can be a superstar,at worldwide or even at school,like,,for me,,its too late,,and i just cant focus on that instead of just to filled my holiday with having a guitar course,,like,,im curios how to play those strings okay,
it felt so good when someone play an acoustic one,and i realize that,,the guitar is not my future,,like helloooooww it really iss nott!!!im lot like those people who have their time playin guitar,like its their soul or something,,i just like hearing music,bu that doesnt mean i have to play the instruments,,and that doesnt mean that i hate on those instruments..stay focus on your medical study that you wana take megaa! okay,i know..enough of my curiosity on how could i play at least one song of taylors song well,,im curios how would it felt like,,:") but i guess im just not in a rite time,,theres something that i must really focus on and just cant be separated on from me,,remember,,i havent even entered college.and iso i have to entered which held on next year,2013 in deutschland..
bye or somethin??:")
Posted in 05.12.2012
why is it with g u i t a r ?lemme tell you,,hhmmh,,
okay,,when i hear to taylors songs,,which commonly with guitar..
i duno my fingers just wanted to make a sound like that,,i cant play guitar..
and i duno i just dont play guitar,i dont play instruments okay,,and this feeling,,"i wanted to play guitaaaarr pleasee someone teachh me,," came out in the end of my senior high padahal gue suka taylor like few years ago..why would i learnn that??cz its like this,when you hear a new song,,a song which you never heard of before..and you just began to like it first maybe from how the notes goes,
how it makes your body move,,and of course youre curios of the lyrics rite??you just cant keep 'nana nana na na naa' or whatever it is..rite??
so you started to search the lyrics,,and started to sing together in a rite rythem with the rite lyrics not just "na nana nanaaa"so searching the lyrics of a music that we like,,,its like the ingredients when you wanna cook something..and it taste mild when the ingredients is not enough rite?you felt like its not complete rite if you cant sing properly with the lyrics on the song you really like??isnt it?so its the same,,okay well we've done with searching the lyrics and began to sing with the song..but i felt not just stopped there,,like the ingredients is not enough,,
it seems i wanna sing along with that instrument..the guitar,,thats it,,and i imagined how would it taste when the ingredients is full enough..sounds tasty hu??so,, i donno why i just wanted to learn,,but i didnt have guitar at that time..so i started asking my boys classmate,,whether they have a guitar to borrow one..and yeaa i got one,,,and who would teach me??lucky me,,my classmate,,,yeaa a close friend of mine,,her name is septyn,,she played guitar well...and lucky me her house is close enough to my house,,so! we started the lessoonn!!! what i hope from here is that at least i could play one of million taylors songs my self and,,if possible,,the song which is like reaallly me :Dso she taught me the indo simple song,i mean easy key..but that lasted really quick,,
cz we have to face SNMPTN,an entrance college exams..but besides that..the one who had the guitar wants his guiatr back cz his mother wanted to use it,,its like few days only,,well at first i used septyns guitar,,but the strigs are not well,,and just cant fixed it or what,i forgot,,so i need to borrow one for myself to practice at home rite?anndd,,,so that just only few days,,and we have to concentrate on the snmptn...so enough for the guitaring lesson..untill that exam is done,,i wanted to practice agaiin with her,,but she just,,shes still buzy with the entrance college exams,,well im not,,cz i dont really intend on that,,
cz ive prepared myself to study abroad rite...i dont know,,
i didnt even thinkin on having a guitar course somewhere,,hhohoo...achh jaa,,after the snmptn test,,ive already got a guitar,,my sisters guitar..not really a good one btw..so i keep thinkin who would teachh mee goddd,,,
until i asked one of my classmate,a boy..but sorry again,,hes busy with his new college...okayy enoughhh so i started to look on the internet,,the videos on how learning a guitar.starting onn youtube,,and i see he has his own site,so i opened it...yepppp i got! the name iss..i forgot,,its a guiatr practicing and we can subscribe by sending our email to him,,but i just felt uncomfort like that way,,theres also the paid one if yu wanted,,but please my mom wont let me and i even dont have money lol.so learning from the video just for days...and endddd on that way lol..untiillll when im in bandung,,and planned to go home like weeks,,i wonder what would i do besides learning deutsch..ahh jaa,,,i wanted to learn guitar agaiin,,,whereeee the hell is butt...!at that time,,ive already knew and met a boy..where i dont expect that he could play guitar well..well at first,i dont really thinkin of would he teach me...nika suggested me,,on her friends studio,seems like theres aguitar course,,but,,pleasee,,if theres the free one,,i'd better take the free one :D so she just knew what i was thinkin,,'who dont you try askin him?maybe he would.." thats it,,butt,,ohh how come,,im too shy.so honestly,,the one who chatted with him at that time was my friend ... well at first i asked him whether he has someone that he knew that could teach me..well yea he knew his teacher bfore,,and he said that he could accompany me there..but then i bravely ask like,,btw,,youre good at playin guitar rite?so why dont just you??
and like he said 'anytime i can please,,' hhoho,,so okay i got anothere free teacher,,well my friend sees this as in our word is 'modus' but well,,not at all guuys! weeelll,,okay a bit,,cz i have feelin to him bfore i asked him to teach me okayy??but who would expect that he could play guitar and teach me??
buttt,,yeaa that just lasted a week,,bz he seems buzy anyway its his last year of senior high..he must have been busy on preparing all of the things to face the national exam,,but beside that,,around the next 2 weeks,,he has to perform with his band in a school event,like indie band i guess,,so that weeks is a week where he also busy practicing on drum,,so i felt like i interrupted him,,so okay its fine i wanna go to his teacher which mean i have to pay..okay i went to his teacher alone,,well at first i got confused on my way there...like i came to a wrong house ! shittt!
lolllll how shaameeee -_____-
then i asked people around there then yapp i found it! i only got 3 days lesson,,cz the last week which on saturday i have to go back to bandung..and guruku ini pengennya libur jeda sehari tiap after having course..okay fine,,i got the basic of learning guitar..not like when with him,,we just played one song and happyy mee cz he teach me taylors song! which is love story,,hohooo..an ternyata nih,he never had a course on playin guitar,it just did,i stil remember he said 'what i know about playin guitar is just jengg jengg jengg' hahahaa lol --" great then.you see? cz im like my point is not getting closer to him,,but my point is just to that guitar,cz i wana "jreenggg" the guitar..if not,,then when i felt like hes really busy,,i wont call his teacher,,rite??
but now..i dont practise it again..now im at home,,i finished my deutsch lesson at bandung...so waited my visa at home,while keep studying for the studkol or aufnahmetest...why dont i study it again?i know and i must realize it..i know that this playin guitar is not something that i wanna keep holding on,and do something with that guitar,,its just because when i hear to taylors songs,,it just wanted me to play those strings,,just it...i cant even be like those who really are talented on playing guitar..and they can be a superstar,at worldwide or even at school,like,,for me,,its too late,,and i just cant focus on that instead of just to filled my holiday with having a guitar course,,like,,im curios how to play those strings okay,
it felt so good when someone play an acoustic one,and i realize that,,the guitar is not my future,,like helloooooww it really iss nott!!!im lot like those people who have their time playin guitar,like its their soul or something,,i just like hearing music,bu that doesnt mean i have to play the instruments,,and that doesnt mean that i hate on those instruments..stay focus on your medical study that you wana take megaa! okay,i know..enough of my curiosity on how could i play at least one song of taylors song well,,im curios how would it felt like,,:") but i guess im just not in a rite time,,theres something that i must really focus on and just cant be separated on from me,,remember,,i havent even entered college.and iso i have to entered which held on next year,2013 in deutschland..
bye or somethin??:")
Posted in 05.12.2012
He is A
pertemuan yang tertundakah?
perkenalan yang tertundakah?
kecengan sgala umatkah?
harus lingkup itukah?
harus diakah?
i hate it,when its all connected with my best memorries ive ever had,in my boarding school.
3years for 1 day?
i missed all of them.and i cant imagined how they missed their memmories,those who finished the school for 6years in that boarding.i envy them sometimes,or most of times?:'
Posted in 25.08.2013
kecengan sgala umatkah?
harus lingkup itukah?
harus diakah?
i hate it,when its all connected with my best memorries ive ever had,in my boarding school.
3years for 1 day?
i missed all of them.and i cant imagined how they missed their memmories,those who finished the school for 6years in that boarding.i envy them sometimes,or most of times?:'
Posted in 25.08.2013
Sesaat untuk Melupakanmu
Teruntuk And,
Hai! rasanya ingin skali menyapa seperti itu didepanmu saat ini,dengan senyumanmu yg membalas senyumku.sayang,itu hanya andai. rasanya seperti baru kemarin kita kenalan.via bbm dan pertemananpun terjalin.mungkin pertemanan kita juga masih terbilang baru,dan terlalu cepat pula perasaan ini hadir,membuat aku didepanmu salah tingkah.
Di kereta saat ini aku duduk diarah yang berlawanan, headset menemaniku sambil menulis tangan ini surat untukmu. apa yg ingin kusampaikan untukmu,mengapa aku menulis ini untukmu. mungkin bagimu tidak asing menerima semacam surat ini dari kebanyakan orang sepertiku. tapi bagiku,butuh seribu keberanian untuk ini.
kaulah orang pertama yang bisa menggerakkan hatiku untuk mengabarimu,seseorang yang memiliki hatiku.
aku tau hati tidak bisa dipaksakan.oleh sebab itu,janganlah merasa tidak enak hati jika kamu tdk memiliki perasaan yg sama sepertiku. aku tak apa.toh aku tak akan mati hanya akan cinta yang tak terbalas. Namun, menyembuhkan luka akan tentu menjadi hal tersulit bagiku. Terbesit ingin tentu memilikimu,dan tak akan aku lepas ketulusanku ini. tapi,apa daya.haha..aku sosok yg sebegitu bahagianya hanya untuk bisa melihatmu meski dalam hitungan detik. dan tidak berani mendekatimu seakan hari itu adalah hari terakhir bertemunya kita. kamu adalah orang yang hadir, yang kemudian dapat untuk sesaat aku lupakan.awalnya seperti itu.tetapi ketika kamu hadir lagi, perasaan itu ada lagi.perasaan dimana aku menertawai kesedihanku.
sesekali kita bertemu dengan rencana dan tidak, adalah takdir yang aku cintai. Namun aku penasaran akan perasaan itu,sempatkah perasaanku untukmu benar benar hilang, atau,, sebenarnya tak pernah pergi?
untuk suatu waktu,aku berfikir,mungkin perasaan itu juga akan ikut hilang ketika kamu pergi menjauh.tetapi sudah lama kamu pergi dari khidupanku, dpikiranku kamu hadir ditengah kusutnya otak ini memikirkan dunia perkuliahanku. teringat kita dulu,membuatku menggumam sendiri..
kamu apa kabar,kamu dimana,kamu sedang sibuk apa,kamu..aku,apakah bisa menjadi kita? aku pendengar setia kok. mendengar semua cerita dari sosok misterius sepertimu adalah suatu waktu yang ingin aku miliki. sehingga tidak asing lagi aku akan namamu. Tetapi lagi lagi itu hanya andai.
mungkin saat kamu membaca surat ini,rasanya ingin sekali kamu mendoakan penggantimu segera untukku demi kebaikanku. tetapi juga akan senantiasa aku berdoa dalam ibadahku,semoga kita diberikan jalan yang terbaik. karna ikhlaslah pada akhirnya yang akan aku petik dari semua ini.
a friend of yours,
Dia
Hai! rasanya ingin skali menyapa seperti itu didepanmu saat ini,dengan senyumanmu yg membalas senyumku.sayang,itu hanya andai. rasanya seperti baru kemarin kita kenalan.via bbm dan pertemananpun terjalin.mungkin pertemanan kita juga masih terbilang baru,dan terlalu cepat pula perasaan ini hadir,membuat aku didepanmu salah tingkah.
Di kereta saat ini aku duduk diarah yang berlawanan, headset menemaniku sambil menulis tangan ini surat untukmu. apa yg ingin kusampaikan untukmu,mengapa aku menulis ini untukmu. mungkin bagimu tidak asing menerima semacam surat ini dari kebanyakan orang sepertiku. tapi bagiku,butuh seribu keberanian untuk ini.
kaulah orang pertama yang bisa menggerakkan hatiku untuk mengabarimu,seseorang yang memiliki hatiku.
aku tau hati tidak bisa dipaksakan.oleh sebab itu,janganlah merasa tidak enak hati jika kamu tdk memiliki perasaan yg sama sepertiku. aku tak apa.toh aku tak akan mati hanya akan cinta yang tak terbalas. Namun, menyembuhkan luka akan tentu menjadi hal tersulit bagiku. Terbesit ingin tentu memilikimu,dan tak akan aku lepas ketulusanku ini. tapi,apa daya.haha..aku sosok yg sebegitu bahagianya hanya untuk bisa melihatmu meski dalam hitungan detik. dan tidak berani mendekatimu seakan hari itu adalah hari terakhir bertemunya kita. kamu adalah orang yang hadir, yang kemudian dapat untuk sesaat aku lupakan.awalnya seperti itu.tetapi ketika kamu hadir lagi, perasaan itu ada lagi.perasaan dimana aku menertawai kesedihanku.
sesekali kita bertemu dengan rencana dan tidak, adalah takdir yang aku cintai. Namun aku penasaran akan perasaan itu,sempatkah perasaanku untukmu benar benar hilang, atau,, sebenarnya tak pernah pergi?
untuk suatu waktu,aku berfikir,mungkin perasaan itu juga akan ikut hilang ketika kamu pergi menjauh.tetapi sudah lama kamu pergi dari khidupanku, dpikiranku kamu hadir ditengah kusutnya otak ini memikirkan dunia perkuliahanku. teringat kita dulu,membuatku menggumam sendiri..
kamu apa kabar,kamu dimana,kamu sedang sibuk apa,kamu..aku,apakah bisa menjadi kita? aku pendengar setia kok. mendengar semua cerita dari sosok misterius sepertimu adalah suatu waktu yang ingin aku miliki. sehingga tidak asing lagi aku akan namamu. Tetapi lagi lagi itu hanya andai.
mungkin saat kamu membaca surat ini,rasanya ingin sekali kamu mendoakan penggantimu segera untukku demi kebaikanku. tetapi juga akan senantiasa aku berdoa dalam ibadahku,semoga kita diberikan jalan yang terbaik. karna ikhlaslah pada akhirnya yang akan aku petik dari semua ini.
a friend of yours,
Dia
Posted in 11.02.2015
Kupasan Memori
kmrn tanggal sekian doi ultah.hri2 sblmnya gue g ngeh klo bsok dia ultah.
toh juga klo gue ingt gue jg g bkal mpe bkin alarm buat ngucapin dia si..cma,, gue tb2 aja hri itu buka path,yg nongol prtma postingnya dia yg bilang kea smcam thaanks for todaay intinya ttng ultahnya dia..trs gue bru ingt deh.hri itu tnggal 'itu'
yauda gue sbgai tmn mngucapkan dpath,ikutan komen biasa..cmn gtau,,gue g ampe stu doang.gue chat dia dbbm.intinya sama cuman ngucapin doang.cmn gtau berlanjut kita ada ngbrol tp g bgtu lama.cuman jdi kea kbesit of old memories with him. but that was short okay.maybe that was sweet. everytime i remembered of him,i remember her too.cuman gue g bisa ngelak. gue juga nglakuin hal yg salah.rasanya memalukan.tiap gue buka pesan dfb trs ngbca pesan yg prnah aku kirim ksahabatku,like.."what have i done?what was i doin.."tiap ngliat chat lama sma tmn2 ..hahahaa ktawaaa gue.lucu bgt.dr model tulisan gue yg sealay itu,ampe yg dbhas..ttng doi pasti.hahaha apalah.coba wktu itu aku ga chatingan sama ayak di ym.cb wktu itu aku g ngbahas ini sama ayak di ym.ah meg,,salahin aja orang.kamu jg salahlah meg.seinget aku,emg yah gtau gmna kita mayan sring ol ym,..tp emg masa2 itu masih lmyn sring ol ym.kea bbrpa tmn ol lah.g kea skg.iyalah jaman makin canggih bray.hhaha.nah wktu tu,,yah kita share critalah.wktu itu blm ada staun emg aku ptus sma doi.yah intinya aku crta aku msih ngganjel aja sama smua ini gtu.and at that time.ayak suggested me like "yauda kluarin aja unek2muu meeeggg.tell her i know you really want her to know ." sbangsa itulah.and yea she motivated me to do that.i dont know.i shudnt have done that.i do regret.i mean.yauda mau dia sma orang lain kek terserah.yg pnting aku udahan dwaktu emg udah theres no way out.mslah aku msih ada rasa,itu urusanku. i shud deal with that feeling myself stupid!i shudnt have done that.itu text bner2 aku siapin.aku tulis di msword.ouuhh suuck.and now,everytime i read that messege to her,im like "eeuuwwhh,what the hell is that writing?!who wrote this"i was mean to her. i wish i knew from the start about their feelin.hrusnya aku biarin aja.toh im over with him.let it be lah me.deal with your feeling yourseelf!hes kinda jerk,but i cant even forget those sweet things,okay? well i guess thats even normal. whatever.acggghhhhh...regretttt.i was that so desperately seekin of suckin love.who the hell is he?a random guy who has great talent of bein smart.yea he is smart.i dont care.am i being curshed?am i wrong ever did that to her? sure. like 'have you lost your pride?" but i was just too younggg :|what im tryn to say,,is that..seriously i didnt mean to be that rude. but yea.honestly i wanted you to know just the points.like,okay i wasnt really finished with him,we havent broke up yet,but then i didnt know that he made up smthing so that youu then showed up,and yea i cant keep my relationtionship any longer with him. and i just cant tell you what really is happening between me and him or even ask you like 'are you really having a relationship with him now?' i cant ask you that. i am just too shocked.im like speechless and dont know what to do and yea,i pretend to be kind(no i am kind) i mean,gue menutupi apa yg sbnrnya gue rasain.i was like being kind to you like ''its reaally okaay dear,you?and him?together?doesnt matter to me,dont bother please...lol'' im so sorry i pretended.i dont know what else i could do.i did stucked up.but then somehow i get in contact with ayak with my heart still hasnt moved on yet.lol.and yea..that happend. the messege thing.believe me. i knew what ive done.and that was stupid.hhahaa,,i was so childish,so immature, alot. i wont ever fall into the same hole anymore.ever.im tryin to be mature here.lol.im learning,,the point is that. i regret saying those to you dear my friend.we even used to be bestfriend thou. and..yea,,thats all.i shudnt have written that to you.i wasnt rite.i shud have kept that myself.i wish i could rewind those times.kinda suck huh,,im so sorry..to let you cry bcause of my message,dear my friend ;)
Posted in 12.04.2014
toh juga klo gue ingt gue jg g bkal mpe bkin alarm buat ngucapin dia si..cma,, gue tb2 aja hri itu buka path,yg nongol prtma postingnya dia yg bilang kea smcam thaanks for todaay intinya ttng ultahnya dia..trs gue bru ingt deh.hri itu tnggal 'itu'
yauda gue sbgai tmn mngucapkan dpath,ikutan komen biasa..cmn gtau,,gue g ampe stu doang.gue chat dia dbbm.intinya sama cuman ngucapin doang.cmn gtau berlanjut kita ada ngbrol tp g bgtu lama.cuman jdi kea kbesit of old memories with him. but that was short okay.maybe that was sweet. everytime i remembered of him,i remember her too.cuman gue g bisa ngelak. gue juga nglakuin hal yg salah.rasanya memalukan.tiap gue buka pesan dfb trs ngbca pesan yg prnah aku kirim ksahabatku,like.."what have i done?what was i doin.."tiap ngliat chat lama sma tmn2 ..hahahaa ktawaaa gue.lucu bgt.dr model tulisan gue yg sealay itu,ampe yg dbhas..ttng doi pasti.hahaha apalah.coba wktu itu aku ga chatingan sama ayak di ym.cb wktu itu aku g ngbahas ini sama ayak di ym.ah meg,,salahin aja orang.kamu jg salahlah meg.seinget aku,emg yah gtau gmna kita mayan sring ol ym,..tp emg masa2 itu masih lmyn sring ol ym.kea bbrpa tmn ol lah.g kea skg.iyalah jaman makin canggih bray.hhaha.nah wktu tu,,yah kita share critalah.wktu itu blm ada staun emg aku ptus sma doi.yah intinya aku crta aku msih ngganjel aja sama smua ini gtu.and at that time.ayak suggested me like "yauda kluarin aja unek2muu meeeggg.tell her i know you really want her to know ." sbangsa itulah.and yea she motivated me to do that.i dont know.i shudnt have done that.i do regret.i mean.yauda mau dia sma orang lain kek terserah.yg pnting aku udahan dwaktu emg udah theres no way out.mslah aku msih ada rasa,itu urusanku. i shud deal with that feeling myself stupid!i shudnt have done that.itu text bner2 aku siapin.aku tulis di msword.ouuhh suuck.and now,everytime i read that messege to her,im like "eeuuwwhh,what the hell is that writing?!who wrote this"i was mean to her. i wish i knew from the start about their feelin.hrusnya aku biarin aja.toh im over with him.let it be lah me.deal with your feeling yourseelf!hes kinda jerk,but i cant even forget those sweet things,okay? well i guess thats even normal. whatever.acggghhhhh...regretttt.i was that so desperately seekin of suckin love.who the hell is he?a random guy who has great talent of bein smart.yea he is smart.i dont care.am i being curshed?am i wrong ever did that to her? sure. like 'have you lost your pride?" but i was just too younggg :|what im tryn to say,,is that..seriously i didnt mean to be that rude. but yea.honestly i wanted you to know just the points.like,okay i wasnt really finished with him,we havent broke up yet,but then i didnt know that he made up smthing so that youu then showed up,and yea i cant keep my relationtionship any longer with him. and i just cant tell you what really is happening between me and him or even ask you like 'are you really having a relationship with him now?' i cant ask you that. i am just too shocked.im like speechless and dont know what to do and yea,i pretend to be kind(no i am kind) i mean,gue menutupi apa yg sbnrnya gue rasain.i was like being kind to you like ''its reaally okaay dear,you?and him?together?doesnt matter to me,dont bother please...lol'' im so sorry i pretended.i dont know what else i could do.i did stucked up.but then somehow i get in contact with ayak with my heart still hasnt moved on yet.lol.and yea..that happend. the messege thing.believe me. i knew what ive done.and that was stupid.hhahaa,,i was so childish,so immature, alot. i wont ever fall into the same hole anymore.ever.im tryin to be mature here.lol.im learning,,the point is that. i regret saying those to you dear my friend.we even used to be bestfriend thou. and..yea,,thats all.i shudnt have written that to you.i wasnt rite.i shud have kept that myself.i wish i could rewind those times.kinda suck huh,,im so sorry..to let you cry bcause of my message,dear my friend ;)
Posted in 12.04.2014
Nope
tiba2 gue sedih lgi.sedih biasa.i feel sad.gue iseng buka instagrmnya..i see the pictre of them..i didnt cry.i was just..
Posted in 18.05.2013
i dont know, i thought that it'll be hard leaving here bcz of him..but i guess..not at all..i can always easily go..anywhere..
theres nothing to worry.hes not mine.we dont care each other.then why shoud i think over? stay focus..
i wanna be like them..who watch their life just for books and learning all the time.
i wanna be like them..who dont care much about having someone..
i wanna be like them..who always has a way to refresh their mind when theyre tired with books.
i wanna be like them who dont mind those things..dont really mind..
i wanna be like them..who can easily wait for the rite time to come..
am i just thinkin it too hard? i take thiss too high or?
i dont know..i hate that word,crush.totally annoys me.and again,.guess time will heal this all..
theres nothing to worry.hes not mine.we dont care each other.then why shoud i think over? stay focus..
i wanna be like them..who watch their life just for books and learning all the time.
i wanna be like them..who dont care much about having someone..
i wanna be like them..who always has a way to refresh their mind when theyre tired with books.
i wanna be like them who dont mind those things..dont really mind..
i wanna be like them..who can easily wait for the rite time to come..
am i just thinkin it too hard? i take thiss too high or?
i dont know..i hate that word,crush.totally annoys me.and again,.guess time will heal this all..
Posted in 18.05.2013
17th and always
Seventeen??so whats goin on with that number for me?
Yapp that’s my age now xD
but that’s not the point I wanna share,
I dunno where to start actually.
Okay.its kinda simple.
This year is my age of seventeenth..
And..ehm,,the date I was with hm is 17.05
Aaanndd the last date i hang out with hm again is 17.07
And you know what,,that day,,I didn’t recognize it okay,that date was used to be something.
We hang out?it just did.its like bcause on the 18s of july I had to go jakrta and stay for weeks in bandung and likely wouldn’t come back again.and when that hang out is over,ive just realized that.hhaha funny. What date is today???goshh..lol
How could that be??? We laugh when we knew that.lol.when we realized the date when we hang out was the date where ehmm xD
Well,,only that??nnooo..
Onemore thing,what is it huh?
Hhihi
Siappaa nihh yg g puasaa?
Happy fasting dehbuat yg puasa.moga dbulan suci ini,bener2 bisa istiqomah mpe akhir yaa..trs juga otomatis lbih baik dr tahun2 sblumnya..makin sayang sama orang2 terdekaat *lohh
Okay…dlu kan gu sklas kan sma dia.wktu tahun prtama gu mnginjakan kaki in senior high. Aku dulu jd bndhara kelas yg artinya gu ph kan.dan yaaa aku dketlhaa sama si mntan ktua klas.hhaha jd msal ada acara kelas..dia psti nglibatin aku -____-
And for this time,wktunya buber yaa bisa dbilang buber trakhir kita untuk SMA :D
Nah,si mantan ketua ni kwalahan dapetin respon dr anak2,d fb g dbls,d smsin juga yaa bbrpa lha~
Trs aku mnawarkan bntuan gtu critanya –“ anak2 kan pda bnyak yg make bb,dchat aja,tp aku pngnnya biar si mntan ktua klaskuaja yg ngchat.jd dia krumahku pnjem bbku.trs buat mutipelchat kan.trs rundingan tuh dbbm sama anak2 trmsuk ada dia.si mntan ktua ni uda megang tanggal 18 bubernya.dn trnyta ada yg g stju.ya gmna mau stjuu k nada yg udaa mlm takbirraaannn -_____- trs si doi ngusulin tanggal 17aja.emg sih ini smua trlepas sama hal2 diatas.tp jstru itu.aku smpt kget.kgetnya krna kelakuyg IPA rncna bubernya tanggal 17 juga!matih ._. tp wktu itu msih blm clear2bgt kelasIPA ku.trs aku crta slah stu tmen ipaku klo tanggalnya tbrakan.trs bbrpa hrikmudian,dpt sebaransms dr tman2 ipaku klo bubernyajdi tanggal 16.thank god!
Hoehhh…tujuhbelaslagi tujuhbelaslagi.klo dulu msih lnjut uda bulan kbrpa yak.hhhaha.done meeg doonee.jd 17.08 slain hrikemerdekaan juga *maybe hri trkahir gue ktmu dia.hhahah iuuhhh
Yapp that’s my age now xD
but that’s not the point I wanna share,
I dunno where to start actually.
Okay.its kinda simple.
This year is my age of seventeenth..
And..ehm,,the date I was with hm is 17.05
Aaanndd the last date i hang out with hm again is 17.07
And you know what,,that day,,I didn’t recognize it okay,that date was used to be something.
We hang out?it just did.its like bcause on the 18s of july I had to go jakrta and stay for weeks in bandung and likely wouldn’t come back again.and when that hang out is over,ive just realized that.hhaha funny. What date is today???goshh..lol
How could that be??? We laugh when we knew that.lol.when we realized the date when we hang out was the date where ehmm xD
Well,,only that??nnooo..
Onemore thing,what is it huh?
Hhihi
Siappaa nihh yg g puasaa?
Happy fasting dehbuat yg puasa.moga dbulan suci ini,bener2 bisa istiqomah mpe akhir yaa..trs juga otomatis lbih baik dr tahun2 sblumnya..makin sayang sama orang2 terdekaat *lohh
Okay…dlu kan gu sklas kan sma dia.wktu tahun prtama gu mnginjakan kaki in senior high. Aku dulu jd bndhara kelas yg artinya gu ph kan.dan yaaa aku dketlhaa sama si mntan ktua klas.hhaha jd msal ada acara kelas..dia psti nglibatin aku -____-
And for this time,wktunya buber yaa bisa dbilang buber trakhir kita untuk SMA :D
Nah,si mantan ketua ni kwalahan dapetin respon dr anak2,d fb g dbls,d smsin juga yaa bbrpa lha~
Trs aku mnawarkan bntuan gtu critanya –“ anak2 kan pda bnyak yg make bb,dchat aja,tp aku pngnnya biar si mntan ktua klaskuaja yg ngchat.jd dia krumahku pnjem bbku.trs buat mutipelchat kan.trs rundingan tuh dbbm sama anak2 trmsuk ada dia.si mntan ktua ni uda megang tanggal 18 bubernya.dn trnyta ada yg g stju.ya gmna mau stjuu k nada yg udaa mlm takbirraaannn -_____- trs si doi ngusulin tanggal 17aja.emg sih ini smua trlepas sama hal2 diatas.tp jstru itu.aku smpt kget.kgetnya krna kelakuyg IPA rncna bubernya tanggal 17 juga!matih ._. tp wktu itu msih blm clear2bgt kelasIPA ku.trs aku crta slah stu tmen ipaku klo tanggalnya tbrakan.trs bbrpa hrikmudian,dpt sebaransms dr tman2 ipaku klo bubernyajdi tanggal 16.thank god!
Hoehhh…tujuhbelaslagi tujuhbelaslagi.klo dulu msih lnjut uda bulan kbrpa yak.hhhaha.done meeg doonee.jd 17.08 slain hrikemerdekaan juga *maybe hri trkahir gue ktmu dia.hhahah iuuhhh
Posted in 14.08.2012
Damai sama si Adek(kelas)
uwesehh damai bro,wkwkwk
jadi wktu itu,,tepat hari dmna gu otw jkrta buat apply account,,di bbm pm nya si adek tu,,"damnshit!" trs gu ngstalk nih critanya dwtiiter.twit2nya tuh smcam "sabar sabar" gitu.trs entah knapa,,,gu kek pngn ngasih smngat aja kdia *aduhitu g lngsung aku bbm.aku rundingan sama farin.hhaha ini tindakan ku aneh g sih.bner g?apa g usah aja?ntr trkesan ikut cmpur ama msalahny pdhal aku emg g tau apa msalhnya.danemgghrus tau sih.pkknya pngn ngsih smngat aja,,.,trs si farin bls initnya,,hhaha yaaa gpp sih meg,,blablabla,,trs aku yauda...aku bbm smacam gni "dek,,,,smnagt ya ngjalanin hri2 mu apapun msalahnya.." smcam gtulah aku lupa.trs dbls intinya iya mbak makasih,,blbalblaa,,gtu,dia juga bilang "mba mega take care dmnapun brda yaaa *emotseneng*" trs dia pjang dpmnya "thanks mba mega *emothug**emotnari*"wktu itu aku blum temenan sama doi dibbm.msih aku delcont. trs udh kan tu mlah bbman sama si adek,,trs g lama kmudian ditwitter,,hhaha dia minta folback,yaud aaku folback,trs bbman gituuu,,,anak2tuh yg brkliaran dtwitter pda smsaku..hhaha"ehmehmm ada brusan dimintain folback tuh" "ehmmhada yg damai tu keanya" "ehhmm folbackk dongqaqaaa..wkkwkw" bhahaha smcam gtulah.trs kdang bbman gitu nyasarnya k"doi"hhaha satu yg aku suka wktu si adek bilang,jdi tu trnyta dia punya potoku sama dia wktu prom.dia dpt dr tmennya.tp gtau deh tmnnya dpt dr siapa,dr mana,,mngkin dr blogku tp gtau juga.trs ya hhhaa smbil bcanda itu jelekk ngpain kmu juga nyimpen2,,--" katanya kenang2an og mbak,hadeeh dekk -____-trs dia ada bilang hhihi,,,sidoi crta kdia klo dia ngjakiin aku poto,tp klo sma yg lain cwek2 yg ngjakin cwe2nya,batinnya si adek i iuuhh yoo masss hhaaha -,-mski dia bilang ada niatan move on,aku tau girangnya dia ditwitter ato dbbm sma tmen2nya...psti stdaknya g pngen hal bruk trjdi sama mreka brdua.aku sndiri yg msih mndem ya udah biarin aja smpe ntr ada yg bner2 bisa nggantiin dia,aku sndri jg g ada narik2 dia.who cares ya ga? my life is a long loong journey.and i wont stuck just bcuz of him.keep on walking mega!yaahh mski uda trkesan baikan,,itu aku bbman sama si adek g cuman skali wktu itu aja,kpan hri aku majang poto wsudaku sama temnku cwo,,dia ngbbm,,intinya tu kea "mbaknya pke foto sama si dia dong:p" hahahah haduh dek,,ntr dianya kpdean males bgttt kan??-.- gitu2 deh,,kpan hri jg ada aku yg ngbbm dluan..yah ngbrol2 biasa,tp entah yahh salalu mnjurus kdia --"mski uda fine fine gtu,trkdang ada misal twitnya dia gtu yg ngbuat,,ini nyindir aku apa gmna,,apa ya aku lupa,tp g aku gubris,,hhihi,,aku postive thinking aja,,:) yg baru2 ini tuh,,bbrpa mnggu yg lalu,aku ada nulis di twitter gni ..smca gni " please showed up in RU,at least knowing you just hearing music is alrite for me :')" itu sama si adek di RT,hhaha keknya kita sama2 tau sapa yg dmksud.dn mngkin si adk blm move on,kwkwkwkk..wjar aja sih,tp gtau skg.ahh apaan.sudahlah.skali plmpiasa ya plmpiasan.
Posted in 07.08.2012
jadi wktu itu,,tepat hari dmna gu otw jkrta buat apply account,,di bbm pm nya si adek tu,,"damnshit!" trs gu ngstalk nih critanya dwtiiter.twit2nya tuh smcam "sabar sabar" gitu.trs entah knapa,,,gu kek pngn ngasih smngat aja kdia *aduhitu g lngsung aku bbm.aku rundingan sama farin.hhaha ini tindakan ku aneh g sih.bner g?apa g usah aja?ntr trkesan ikut cmpur ama msalahny pdhal aku emg g tau apa msalhnya.danemgghrus tau sih.pkknya pngn ngsih smngat aja,,.,trs si farin bls initnya,,hhaha yaaa gpp sih meg,,blablabla,,trs aku yauda...aku bbm smacam gni "dek,,,,smnagt ya ngjalanin hri2 mu apapun msalahnya.." smcam gtulah aku lupa.trs dbls intinya iya mbak makasih,,blbalblaa,,gtu,dia juga bilang "mba mega take care dmnapun brda yaaa *emotseneng*" trs dia pjang dpmnya "thanks mba mega *emothug**emotnari*"wktu itu aku blum temenan sama doi dibbm.msih aku delcont. trs udh kan tu mlah bbman sama si adek,,trs g lama kmudian ditwitter,,hhaha dia minta folback,yaud aaku folback,trs bbman gituuu,,,anak2tuh yg brkliaran dtwitter pda smsaku..hhaha"ehmehmm ada brusan dimintain folback tuh" "ehmmhada yg damai tu keanya" "ehhmm folbackk dongqaqaaa..wkkwkw" bhahaha smcam gtulah.trs kdang bbman gitu nyasarnya k"doi"hhaha satu yg aku suka wktu si adek bilang,jdi tu trnyta dia punya potoku sama dia wktu prom.dia dpt dr tmennya.tp gtau deh tmnnya dpt dr siapa,dr mana,,mngkin dr blogku tp gtau juga.trs ya hhhaa smbil bcanda itu jelekk ngpain kmu juga nyimpen2,,--" katanya kenang2an og mbak,hadeeh dekk -____-trs dia ada bilang hhihi,,,sidoi crta kdia klo dia ngjakiin aku poto,tp klo sma yg lain cwek2 yg ngjakin cwe2nya,batinnya si adek i iuuhh yoo masss hhaaha -,-mski dia bilang ada niatan move on,aku tau girangnya dia ditwitter ato dbbm sma tmen2nya...psti stdaknya g pngen hal bruk trjdi sama mreka brdua.aku sndiri yg msih mndem ya udah biarin aja smpe ntr ada yg bner2 bisa nggantiin dia,aku sndri jg g ada narik2 dia.who cares ya ga? my life is a long loong journey.and i wont stuck just bcuz of him.keep on walking mega!yaahh mski uda trkesan baikan,,itu aku bbman sama si adek g cuman skali wktu itu aja,kpan hri aku majang poto wsudaku sama temnku cwo,,dia ngbbm,,intinya tu kea "mbaknya pke foto sama si dia dong:p" hahahah haduh dek,,ntr dianya kpdean males bgttt kan??-.- gitu2 deh,,kpan hri jg ada aku yg ngbbm dluan..yah ngbrol2 biasa,tp entah yahh salalu mnjurus kdia --"mski uda fine fine gtu,trkdang ada misal twitnya dia gtu yg ngbuat,,ini nyindir aku apa gmna,,apa ya aku lupa,tp g aku gubris,,hhihi,,aku postive thinking aja,,:) yg baru2 ini tuh,,bbrpa mnggu yg lalu,aku ada nulis di twitter gni ..smca gni " please showed up in RU,at least knowing you just hearing music is alrite for me :')" itu sama si adek di RT,hhaha keknya kita sama2 tau sapa yg dmksud.dn mngkin si adk blm move on,kwkwkwkk..wjar aja sih,tp gtau skg.ahh apaan.sudahlah.skali plmpiasa ya plmpiasan.
Posted in 07.08.2012
Jeal(ous)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............
theyre just sooooooooooo sweeettttttttttttlike,,the sweetes couple ive ever seen!!well,even some says that theyre just being too much,,
it just reminds me of a quote that says...hhmm,,hhe,i forgot but the main is that,,well if you do like someone who is in relationship with a girl,,you must not be the reason why would they end it..just dont break their relation.just be happy with that,,and you'll get better than him. :)
and right now,ive just seen another quote that says "why do people always say"if we're meant to be,,we're meant to be". dont they know that without effort,destiny wont work?"that quote is so great.lol.
day by day,,time past by time,,their getting sweeter~gosh.and im sitting here like do nothing watching beautiful couples who are going to be last forever,,
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa...boh bohh,,,,langgeng2 o konooo,,,*eh hahha,,what have i just said? -funny.
*theyre just too perfect* *wish be lasting couple*
Posted in 13.03.2012
theyre just sooooooooooo sweeettttttttttttlike,,the sweetes couple ive ever seen!!well,even some says that theyre just being too much,,
it just reminds me of a quote that says...hhmm,,hhe,i forgot but the main is that,,well if you do like someone who is in relationship with a girl,,you must not be the reason why would they end it..just dont break their relation.just be happy with that,,and you'll get better than him. :)
and right now,ive just seen another quote that says "why do people always say"if we're meant to be,,we're meant to be". dont they know that without effort,destiny wont work?"that quote is so great.lol.
day by day,,time past by time,,their getting sweeter~gosh.and im sitting here like do nothing watching beautiful couples who are going to be last forever,,
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa...boh bohh,,,,langgeng2 o konooo,,,*eh hahha,,what have i just said? -funny.
*theyre just too perfect* *wish be lasting couple*
Posted in 13.03.2012
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