Mr. Wall #part2

mid 2014 (september-early 2015)

ini adalah tahun pertama gue masuk kuliah.
gue mutusin to put away my hijab for...well my plan was until i finished my study here.
but if i can wear sooner,why not? but i need to promise myself that after wearing it again,
i wont ever take it off anymore.. well,i did made that decision. 

kebetulan, temannya doi kuliah dikota yang tdk bgtu jauh dari kota gue. sebut saja temanya adalah A. gue suka beberapa kali jalan di kota si A ini. dan si A juga emg temen gue juga si. dan doi kebetulan suka main krumah temanya ini, si A. padahal beda kota uda gitu berjam2 dari kota doi ke kota A. 
dan itu ngebuat secara ga sengaja,me and him met. hmm..i guess i was in a good contact with him.
there was once a time where he chatted me first in the middle of a nite and it wasnt something important at all lol. then we had a nice chats i guess. 
october,november passed..december came..new years eve came..
awalnya gue berencana tahun baru di kota temen gue,yang dia jg kenal sama doi.
tapi entah..tmn gue ini bilang, doi ngajakin tahun baruanya di rumah A aja. doi disana jg loh me!
kata temen gue gtu. A ini,temenya doi,temenya tmn gue, dan temen gue juga. A ini yg kuliah di kota yg deket sama kota gue tadi. yang tadi gue mention diatas! 
alhasil si doi ngchat gue ngajakin tahun baruanya drumah si A aja.okeh,deal g jadi beli tiket k kota temen gue hahaha .___. 
3 hari nginep disana kurang lebih.. gue lupa bawa baju tiduur yaaa huhu jadi g enak bgt g punya baju tidur :( tights yg gue pake jalan terpaksa buat tidur :( kan g enak :( 
malesnya lagi gue g jago masak yak,and he cooks well.gue bagian bersi2 nya aja dehh :3 huhu :''
slama disana,gimana caranya gue harus nglupain dia. i mean that feeling bro.cuman sekedar..dia g baik buat gue..
hari saatnya balik ke kota masing2 datang, and i felt like,,i cant handle this.
just that hard to say goodbye lol. huft. 
we're heading back now to our own town. i cried to my friend who was there and she was like,
"come on,not bcause of him and all you can do is just nothing"  
one of my friends took my phone and chatted him.shit .__. *now awkward*
bcz we had nothing to discuss or anything.and he replied just short. 
the nite came,i said a thing that i dont even wish to be more.im just..saying..

somehow i do regret. i just cant believe i could do that. anyway it just happend.
after that one nite, we didnt have a contact anymore until he chatted me first asking why i took off my hijab. i explained it all.. then well im not really hoping him to understand since not all peple can understand me. then he replied short,just to cheer me up. i didt replied. until he texted me again saying that he wanted to visit my town. and so he stayed at our home for a nite. he was accompanied by A. 
it was short.and..bye~ :) my roommate said we're not awkward at all ;)
i thought that i would be really fine with him if maybe i could have an easy conversation with in chats but..he seems to make a distance then, so.. i never contacted him anymore unless asking for something really important regarding i dont know,like university,lessons and things like that.. :) 
and...yea.that was it. and our last meeting was Eid that july.